Why am I single? The question I ask myself every day.

I’ve been talking to my cousin, sister and my best friend a lot about guys lately. My cousin: currently in the cutest 2 month old relationship. My sister- she’s been dating this guy for several months, so basically they will be bf and gf soon. My best friend- she’s been in a relationship for 6 years and counting. Then there’s me: SINGLE AF. -_-

The questions I dread answering are: So do you have a boo yet?; Why are you single? Are you dating anyone?………..AND when I say: NO, BECAUSE NO ONE I’VE MET IS WORTH MY TIME, NO( respectively)……. THE RESPONSE: Oh, you’ll find someone; You’re beautiful; the right guy will come along don’t worry. *sigh*

I’m 22 and I’ve been single the entire 22 years of my life. I mean if I want to get technical I had a boyfriend in 5^th grade but that doesn’t even count because we went out for like a week and I was just honestly too young to understand all of that. Anyways, I WAS in the mindset that I’m going to be single forever. I’m one of the biggest hopeless romantics I know. I could read love quotes all day, cry during “A walk to Remember” even though I’ve literally seen that movie a 100 times and dream about the perfect guy for me. I’ve always envisioned myself married at 27 and 2 kids by 29/30. So as of today, I have 3 years and a couple of months to meet that guy, which could be an eternity or it could fly buy just as fast as my 4 years in college did……. and not happen.

Maybe it’s partially my fault that I’m single? In the past there have been 3 types of guys in my life:

1. The A-HOLES- These are the guys I usually end up talking to. The guys who are rude, who end up having a secret girlfriend, who don’t really care about me, who string me along like a puppet and then end up hurting me.
2. THE NICE GUYS-The guys that I’ll text back because these are the guys I should be talking to.  The ones who ask me to go on dates, the ones who actually care about my life, the ones that text me good morning 🙂
3. THE ANNOYING GUYS– The guys that I won’t text back. (Not because I don’t want to, but because I only consider them as friends and they want more than that.)  These are the guys that like me and want to get to know me but don’t get the hint that I’m not interested.

I know many of you ladies can relate. Maybe I should give the nice/ annoying guys a chance, but the truth is, I WILL NOT SETTLE. I came to the realization last week when I went out on 2 dates with this guy. I was so into him and he seemed like a decent person; we laughed, we had good conversation, we kissed—ya know? just cute sh*t. Then I never heard from him. No call, no text…. nothing. I thought it was me( like did my breath stink? did I have 1 too many glasses of wine? like wtf?), but I came to the conclusion that he’s obviously not the one for me and when I meet the one I will know immediately. Just because my family and friends are in super cute relationships right now, doesn’t mean it’s going to happen for me at this moment in time. Everyone has a different path, including me, so I can’t compare myself to others just because I want to be in a relationship. I have faith in God and faith that things will turn out the way I’ve always dreamed of.

So, in the meantime, I’m doing me :).  AND if any of you ladies are in the same boat as I am, then let’s party, laugh and dance on this boat!  Because one day when we least expect it, the man of our dreams will sweep us off of our feet!!!